Whenever I
start a “top ten” list, I like to preface it by saying it is a personal list
for me, an emotional one. I’m not interested in arguing about what is “best” a
concept I just don’t believe in. Instead I’m interested in sharing the films
which have meant the most to me, which I enjoy, and which move me. I thought it
would be fun to reflect back on the years from 2010 – 2019 and which films in
that period meant the most to me and remain my favourites.
While I’m
not interested in arguing about the so called “quality” of films, I’m also not
interested in arguments about when the “decade” actually begins or ends. For
the record a “decade” is any ten consecutive years in a row. I just chose, like
many, to start counting January 1 2010, and since that time, these are the 10
films which meant the most to me.
I’ve always
felt this was Xavier Dolan’s most underrated film. It sucks me in each time I
watch it, turning me into a mushy ball of emotion. I laugh. I cry. I feel a
melancholy that I rarely feel. This treatise on friendship and selfishness and
desire and insecurity makes me look into a mirror I rarely let myself see, and
gives me sympathy for what I find.
Before Midnight
My
favourite movie series of all time is the Before
series, a series which follows a couple through each stage of their adult lives,
at just the moment I am experiencing that stage of life. And with each installment, the series gets richer. This is the first to explore the true
challenge of sharing a life with someone. Films are always about falling in
love, or falling out of love. But films about living into that love are rare,
especially when they are so astute. Each film ends with a moment of delicious
and painful unknowing and this ending I found the most intense of all.
If I had to
pick this might win as my absolute favourite film of the decade. Rarely do I
feel as much as I feel when I watch this film. Jenkins’ has crafted one of the
most beautiful films ever, both in terms of how it looks but also in how it
feels. The meeting of the two men at the end of the film is one of the rawest,
most powerful love scenes I’ve ever seen, and it is also one of the most
restrained. Simply perfection.
The Raid 2
Action
movies leave me cold most of the time so when one can wrap me up in its story
and have me on the edge of my seat I pay attention. The Raid 2 sits squarely
within its genre but exceeds all the expectations of that genre. It is filled
with the sort of delicious characters and world building which invests you in
its story, building off the strong foundation set up in the first film, but The Raid 2 explodes out of that into
something even greater. The art direction, cinematography, and choreography
make it a gorgeous film to watch. I never tire of falling down the rabbit hole
that is one of the rare sequels to be a better movie than its predecessor.
While many
of my favourite films of this decade are fun movies I love to watch, a number
of them are painful movies I love to watch. Shame is one of the hardest, yet
also one of the most visually beautiful, films I’ve ever seen. Frame by frame
this film is stunning and in that the sense of desperation and isolation is
amplified. The performances of Mulligan and Fassbender are gorgeously sad. I’m
wrecked by the film by the end, with an ending that fills me with uncertainty
and dread. And then I watch it again.
Star Wars The Last Jedi
The more I
watch this the more I feel it may be the best Star Wars movie ever. The way it questions the hero’s journey
troupes exploited in the original films and the archetype of most tentpole
blockbusters from the Marvel movies to the origins of the sci fi genre, is
brilliant. Yet all of this set in a film which captures everything magical and
wonderful about Star Wars, the films
which first made me a film lover in the first place.
I remember
the first time I watched this story of two friends spending Christmas Eve
searching LA for one of their exes with my jaw on the floor, stunned at the
power of the performances and the gorgeousness of the film shot entirely on
iphones. To say it is “raw” feels simplistic. Perhaps "honest" is a better term.
I love a film that puts us in the skin of people who are usually the source of
the joke in other films and gets us to see what is truly beautiful about
imperfect humanity.
The best
horror teaches us something about ourselves, and that learning should be
terrifying. Few “scary” films actually scare me but Us is one of the exceptions. Centered around the amazing one of a
kind performance of Lupita N’yongo and a blow your mind Twilight Zone story,
Jordan Peel’s second film is, in my opinion, better than his more praised
breakthrough.
What makes Weekend so sexy for me is just how real
the sexuality feels in this film, how honest the emotions are arising from the
physicality, and by the time the film’s climax arrives, I am as hopelessly and
senselessly in love as the characters.
Weekend feels like it captures a uniquely queer emotional power in a way
most cinema isn’t able to manage. Sometimes falling in love exists in just one
moment. While there are times that moment will lead to other moments, sometimes they
won’t. Weekend is beautiful in how
either way this love is worth savouring and celebrating.
Which is what I do with each and every one of these films, each one a source of joy for me. There were many great films, many far more acclaimed than this list, but for me, these are the most treasured films I experienced in the last 10 years.
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